fans can be weird asf. I do not like Mel*nie Mart*nez and her insane fans

This is about Melanie fans. I do not like them and I sure as hell do not like her. Having your favourite artist accused of rape and then saying "why didn't the victim go to the police or sue" is. Certainly a take!!!! I'm not going to explain it because anyone who is asking that "question" in good conscience can find the answer pretty easily. I thought that we got over the victim blaming and false claiming of sexual abuse victims in general but apparently the claims aren't valid when they're against you favourite artist.

Personally I couldn't give less of a shit if she means a lot to people when they're willing to actively spread insane shit about the person who accused Melanie, and at that point if the only way you can try to claim it didn't happen is by making shit up???? That does not reflect well at all on the fact that even you think that piece of shit didn't do it .

 Honestly I couldn't care less if people listen to her music. But being a fan which, as far as I've seen most fans of her deny the allegations entirely, makes me pretty disgusted.

 I'm slightly surprised people didn't take a similar stance to a lot of MSI fans where they enjoy the music but very openly dislike the frontman or at bare minimum don't try to claim his victim is a liar, but there's probably quite a few factors that have effected this. One of them is probably gender and the fact that the agesnofnfans are different, target demographics etc. Honestly I just hope that the victim stops being harassed by Melanie fans because it's fucking rancid behaviour and that all of those fans eventually get older and stop being so gross but one can only hope.

Also "she didn't say no" is such an insane thing to say and I know a girl irl who told me that that means it didn't happen and she wasn't assaulted in any way. What. That's genuinely disgusting how the fuck do you say someone "didn't say no" and people still defend you oh my lord

I'll be able to look you in the eyes one day I promise 

Purring

I feel hungry

Paris trip part 1

why the fuck is it sideways 

Okay so anyways

That Paris trip

I WILL be on it. I ahem did not realise there was a waiting list!!!! Jesus that's so embarrassing fuck me. Gonna ask about it tomorrow and stuff blah blah someone's already dropped out and it's in February so I think I have a decent chance of getting on. Want to go and can go just didn't have any slots left by the time I tried to sign up <\3 (only two hours after the list was opened)((istg))

Anyways. Have to figure out how to be normal. Can be many things normal regular guys is,,,, hard. Need to be able to talk to people better and not just talk weird with a fucking look on my face and a bad smile. Embarrassing. く⁠コ⁠:⁠彡く⁠コ⁠:⁠彡く⁠コ⁠:⁠彡く⁠コ⁠:⁠彡く⁠コ⁠:⁠彡

I really wanna go on that trip I think it would just be kinda neat I guess, and it would be fun to go on a school trip with Sal, we're in different grades so usually we wouldn't be able to do this and this is the literal only opportunity. I don't wanna miss it and regret.

Personally my 'luck' is rather good do even though I'm not certain about going on the trip, privately to myself I do think I have a nice chance. ʕ⁠·⁠ᴥ⁠·⁠ʔ(⁠｡⁠･⁠ω⁠･⁠｡⁠)(⁠･⁠ω⁠･)

try saying that two times fast

I'm not even certain I'm gonna make it to university everything feels so unstable right now. I probably won't kill myself because it's easier to rot and fail like this. Amazing. What an amazing fucking place I can't do shit and I don't know why I wish I could I'm so sorry but what am I meant to do????? I don't understand any of this I can barely keep my head up in class and even when I do the first lesson I understand the math but the second of the topic feels like such a big leap and I just get lost and give up until the next topic comes up the next week and I keep fucking doing it I wish I could just understand like everybody else I hate my mother

What do these posts even mean

hi part 2

Nobody's gonna ever fucking see this because nobody fucking uses Blogspot anymore.

I'm so sorry dude wish I could've s better friend. I wish I knew what to do I'm so sorry

hi

I just read my last post lmao. It's been two months. I feel awful. Like, I feel like earlier today I wasn't engaging enough or enthusiastic enough replying to his messages. I didn't sent any stuff first or start any conversations. I swear to god last week I was telling myself I need to think about him less because it's weird and probably concerning but when I don't talk to him more than like 3 times a day I feel like I've been ignoring him. I wasn't feeling that great so that's probably why I didn't reply as interestingly as I could have but man.

Sometimes I really hate being a faggot. Ahahahaha hhhhh. I dont think I'll ever tell him how I feel. He probably already knows since he picks up on this stuff better than me. Ah. °_° . Fuck this shit man like yeah I wanna tell him but what if. What if be doesn't fucking like me back and finds it weird. What if he doesn't want to be friends anymore what if it makes.him uncomfortable what if he feels the same way but doesn't wanna admit it either. Am I not saying anything and denying any possible signs because I'm too prideful or because I'm a fucking pussy. Dude. It's almost been a year. God. I love you dude . This sucks ass. Fuck fuck fuck 

being a teenager is hard , p1

It's like all so fucking weird because this last year has been I think my best and shit y'know, and I want it to last forever but I'm kinda worried. I really like how it is right now and the idea of things changing feels so weird man. (⁠ ⁠:⁠ ⁠˘⁠ ⁠∧⁠ ⁠˘⁠ ⁠:⁠ ⁠) . I was writing in a small diary notebook trying to conceptualise my emotions about someone and like, fuck it felt so weird . I don't know how to explain it like I can use common vocabulary or whatever to get the point across shortly and succinctly but like fuck that doesn't explain it.

Wrote like 6/7 pages about him even if it was A7. was talking to Fish(we'll go with Fish for this nickname hahahah)  about how I feel thinking about him and like idfk when I see him here and there gives me a right fucking shock. Feels like my heart is in my throat . I think Fish was this close to calling me a stupid faggot(affectionate manner) and told me fucking sounds like a crush. Oh . Okay then. Well that's great(not).

Made me so disgusted when I realised that my emotions even could be something other than platonic. Felt like an awful person and an even worse friend. Couldn't get him out of my mind and still can't. Been months since I realised . Less disgust at my alleged emotions but FUCK it's weird to think about . I don't know what I see in him. He has a bunch of good traits but y'know. It's like other people could be real similar to him and even then I don't think Id care about them. I literally don't get what I see in him. Maybe I'll go to sleep tonight and realise or some shit but it pisses me off I can't explain why I'm so fond of him and it's so annoying it's my feelings why don't I get to understand them (⁠ ⁠≧⁠Д⁠≦⁠)(⁠ ⁠≧⁠Д⁠≦⁠)(⁠ ⁠≧⁠Д⁠≦⁠)(⁠ ⁠≧⁠Д⁠≦⁠)(⁠ ⁠≧⁠Д⁠≦⁠)(⁠ ⁠≧⁠Д⁠≦⁠)(⁠ ⁠≧⁠Д⁠≦⁠)(⁠ ⁠≧⁠Д⁠≦⁠)(⁠ ⁠≧⁠Д⁠≦⁠)(⁠ ⁠≧⁠Д⁠≦⁠)

Nowhere near even started when we were first friends happened and realised what???? Two months ago that I like that fucker,????? Being mean when reffering to him here don't take it personally 😓😓😓😓 nothing against you . Was gonna say something but forgot. Oh well .

Fish also stalks his reposts ( this is a mutual thing between like most of every of my friends((hahaahahhahahahah like 3 including meee))) and he seems to have a crush on someone too. Fish keeps saying they're 100% sure its on me . Hm . Don't know how I'd feel about that. Just because he could like me back doesn't mean that if that were the case it would be a good thing. Have to have healthy(delusional) level of skepticism and must not have pride by assuming it must be me. But not sure who else it could be. We also keep sending eachother GIFs of Rei Chikita that say Te amo. Euhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh(pained noises) . Fish keeps trying to genuinely convince me to say something but I think I have tok much pride for that. Hedgehog's dilemma yada yada. 😓😓😓😓 Also even if I did fuck am I ment to say. ????? Weirdos.

Very happy to just stay (best(????))friends

Getting photos developed!!!!

 Getting photos of me and some friends, and loads of photos of my cat developed....

Have been finding all these old BlogSpot sites from a decade or so ago and feels like magic... Someone just like me but from 10 years ago?!?! such an odd but fun feeling!!!

Have made friends with someone I have wanted to be friends with for a year, he is very cool

I love Alice Asmodeus

 

Personally I find him quite homosexual... For whatever reason people online hate that. I completely understand disliking headcanons with no substance and such ; but most of it is barely-veiled homophobia and such... People also claim there is no gayness whatsoever, but how Asmodeus treats and talks like Iruma? If Asmodeus were female people would instantly say it's a crush and that it's stupid to dismiss.... Makes me a bit angry but mostly sad .

End of the image upload issues saga...

 It turns out I can't fucking upload shit but can copy and paste. The last post I used snip & sketch. I tried it on a whim and it worked!!!!

oh. this works

 

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wtf man... It seems like this is why I cannot upload images. I hate Google.